I can testify to that.
Have you ever wanted to try something new and you were super excited about it, only to bravely start and find that people have been doing it much better and for much longer than you? Well, that’s what happened when I started this blog.
When I first sprouted the idea to blog, I hardly knew what blogging was. I thought I’d tap into the beauty of the internet and inspire women in every nook and cranny of the world from the comfort of my own home. A modern and introverted form of ministry, if you will. Easy enough, right? Well, when Derek was selected to be an officer in the Air Force, that exact afternoon, I excitedly cranked out my very first blog post. The words spilled out of me!
After jumping into a new realm of creative expression so quickly, not considering all it takes to build and design a website, there my blog post sat…for months.
It’s challenging to admit out loud, but what I realized is that I’ve never been the type to take on a foreign task that I wasn’t sure I’d excel at. I overanalyze everything before making a decision. It seems if something new entails any possibility of failure or lack of perfection, I wasn’t going to do it.
Perfectionism can be a very slow poison that kills any attempt to getting things done.
Interestingly enough, I had told too many people about my new venture and simply could not back out. That darn accountability thing had me cornered.
Thankfully, my incredibly talented and inspiring friend (or blog bud) Tori, took me under her wing. She pushed me, taught me, kept me on a tight schedule, and rooted for me; God bless her heart!
Here’s where the comparison curse kicked my butt.
Once I launched my blog, I began following and subscribing to as many established blogging sites as I could. You know, so I could sit back and admire their work. That’s the best way to learn, right? Well, my admiration quickly turned into its evil step-sister, comparison.
And comparison turned into doubt, pressure, angst, jealousy, and discontentment.
All the things God clearly did not intend for me when he placed blogging on my heart.
Why am I doing this again? What’s the point? I either look self-obsessed or I’m saying things that have all been said before…and probably in a less interesting way.
Well, when I needed motivation the most, I received the sweetest DM via Instagram from a girl who mentioned feeling inspired by my love for Jesus. So much so that she wanted to know how she too can know the love of Jesus and teach her daughter as well!
I was reminded that no matter what’s been done before, we each have something unique to bring to the table. And when we bring it with humility, love, and expectancy for God to do what He wills with it, great things for the Kingdom can and will happen.
I am just a tool for His glory and grace in the life He gave me. I’m not here to tell my story, because my story isn’t even mine.
There’s one thing those extremely talented bloggers can’t do; they can’t tell my story or the exclusive ways He’s transformed and entrusted my interests, skills, and this life to me.
If God gives me grace to not be perfect and still love everything about me, then so should I.
Below you'll find a collection of images I gathered from Pinterest, enjoy!
In what ways can you give yourself a little more grace, to be less than perfect, and stop the comparison curse in your life? Comment below!