In Transition and lot's of Waiting.
Yay for everyone’s favorite topic - waiting! (Where’s the “read in sarcastic voice” button?)
About a year and a half ago in my quiet time with Jesus, I felt He was speaking a new word over my life. I doubted this word was coming from Him, brushed it off, dismissed it, and actually began to pray against it.
“Wait” -in fact, a season of waiting- was to come.
Now, I’m the kind of gal who loves surprises and all, but I need to mentally prepare myself for surprises, get the picture? Everything is as planned as planned can be! #ControlFreak. So naturally, this little tid-bit of what was to come made me quite uneasy.
However, the wonderful thing about an all knowing God, who is also fully a gentile Father, is that He likes to reveal things to us in advance! Enough so, that He prepares our hearts ahead of time, so the rug isn’t swept out from under our feet, but also enough to challenge us. He provokes curiosity and awareness, He allows for time to prepare our spirits, to be on guard constantly building our faith in His goodness and His promises...so that no matter what life throws in our direction, we’re ready and funnily enough waiting.
Fast forward six months to where Derek and I have the final Air Force chat. You, know the one that ended in me wanting to blog about being an Air Force wife? Yea, that one.
Eureka! This is it! This must’ve been the answer I’d been waiting for.
Well, sort of. This was just the beginning. We waited while praying, we waited while seeking counsel and support over our decision, we waited for application clearances, and test after test. We waited four months for an answer, we waited for a plan and the courage to close our home business, then we waited for some more follow up appointments. We waited for Derek’s swear in date, we waited for one last physical, we waited for a number of results, signatures, and certifications. And finally, we are still waiting for Derek’s OTS (Officer Training School) class date. It’s almost been a year...of waiting and I know even more waiting is to come.
The hardest part about all this waiting is the fact that we can’t even plan past one month ahead. Yikes! This is every Type-A-er’s nightmare. And yet,
“The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time. You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.”
-Psalm 145: 15-16
This verse jumped off the page and right into my heart at the most perfect of times. God’s word is absolutely perfect, comforting, oh-so timely, and just plain true.
I have not been myself, to say the least, since we learned that Derek was in fact selected to be an Officer in the Air Force. Only because I gave God a listening ear, and eventually an open heart. I’ve given back to God what is rightfully His, control. He is nourishing my spirit and patience is now a fruit I bear...most of the time. (Hey, I’m a work in progress, His work in progress) Thank you, Jesus!
“Lead me in Your truth and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation; for You I wait all the day long.”
Are there any words you feel God is speaking to you? If not, how do you think you can make yourself available to hear from Him? (Comment below!)